WARKAH BONDA (buat anakanda yang berada di IRBED)

Anakandaku Atiqah,

Airmata bonda bercucuran membaca warkahmu yg ditujukan khas buat Fathia, sahabat baik mu. Bonda dapat merasakan betapa hebatnya kerinduanmu terhadap dia. Sungguh bonda turut merasainya kerana bonda turut merindui mu malah sgt terkilan kerana tidak berkesempatan menemuimu ketika anakanda pulang ke Malaysia tempoh hari. Bonda ada mengajak Fathia berkunjung kerumah mu tetapi nasib tidak menyebelahi bonda kerana anakanda sudah merancang utk menziarahi nenekmu pada hari itu. Bonda redha kerana nenekmu lebih penting.

Atiqah,

Bonda sgt menghargai persahabatan kamu berdua...persahabatan yg begitu akrab sehingga ketika anakanda berdua berada di KISAS, setiap kali bonda menziarahi Fathia, bonda rasa tak sah kalau tidak dapat berjumpa dgn mu walaupun untuk beberapa saat sahaja. Anakanda sgt berbudi bahasa, sopan santun, lemah lembut dan melayan bonda seperti ibu sendiri. Bonda rasa seolah-olah ada satu ikatan di hati-hati kita, walau ianya tidak pernah dibicara atau diluahkan malahan tidak pernah jua saling mengenali sebelum itu.

Atiqah,

Bonda turut terkilan kerana anakanda berdua terpaksa berpisah bagi meneruskan cita-cita masing-masing. Anakanda pernah berkata, kalau boleh hendak belajar bersama-sama Fathia. Tapi Allah Maha Berkuasa di atas segala-galanya. Dialah yang menentukan takdir kita. Maka anakanda berdua terpisah...walaupun tidak jauh namun perpisahan itu membawa kesedihan dan kepedihan. Tapi percayalah, anakandaku, ini adalah ujian dan dugaan dariNya yg hendak menguji sejauh mana kesetiaan kamu berdua sebagai sahabat sejati. Sejauh mana keikhlasan yang kamu suburkan di dalam hati. Kita tidak akan tau sedalam mana kasih kita pada seseorang jika kita tidak diuji dgn perpisahan.

Atiqah,

Perpisahan itu memang menyakitkan. Namun, jika kamu redha dgn ketentuanNya, bonda yakin di akhir perpisahan ini nanti, anakanda berdua akan menikmati suasana yg lbh bahagia. Bonda teringat kata-kata seseorg yang pernah rapat dgn bonda satu masa dahulu, "A minute of loneliness, Happiness for a lifetime". Di kala kita keseorangan dan kesunyian, kita pasti akan teringat saat-saat suka dan duka bersama-sama org yg kita sygi dan sentiasa berharap agar kesunyian itu akan berakhir dgn kegembiraan sepanjang hayat. Di sinilah perlunya pengorbanan. Tiada kasih yang tidak menuntut pengorbanan. Hanya bonda harap ungkapan "Yang Indah Itu Hanya Sementara" tidak akan berlaku di antara kamu berdua.

Di akhir kata bonda doakan semoga anakanda sentiasa tabah menghadapi cabaran dalam mengejar cita-cita. Anggaplah kesunyian dan kerinduan anakanda sebagai satu hiburan di perantauan. Ianya adalah mainan perasaan semata-mata. Bonda yakin anakanda mampu mengatasinya.

Anak cina memasang lukah
Lukah dipasang di tanjung jati
Di dalam hati tidak ku lupa
Bagaikan rambut bersimpul mati

Daun selasih permainan budak
Daun selasih dimakan budak
Bercerai kasih talak tiada
Seribu tahun bertemu juga

(sebahagian petikan lagu dari filem melayu "GURINDAM JIWA" lakonan Nordin Ahmad dan Latifah Omar......masa tu anakanda2 berdua lum ujud lagi di dunia....tetapi lagu ini sgt2 bonda minati.)

Sekian, salam sayang.

Gara-Gara nak kulit cantik....

It all happened during last weekend. I bought a beauty soap, a day cream and a night cream (Vitamin E) tp bahannya xtau pulak dr ape....tp kata jurujual tu bahan natural n xde bahan kimia. Murah je...RM15 semuanya. Tujuannya nak remove pigmentation (jeragat) yg dah bnyk melata di muka. Maklumlah, kulit dah terlalu matured or maybe becoz I don't bother much about skin care. So nak buatlah something kat kulit muka biar cantik, halus dan mulus, konon-konon nak improve penampilan sikit utk raya nanti.

On the 1st day , I washed my face using the beauty soap and applied the day and night cream. Everything was ok. No negative reaction. Rase confidentlah jugak. If it works, I don't have to invest in all those expensive set of skin care which are available in the market.

To my surprise, on the 2nd day, that was on Sunday, when I woke up to prepare for Sahur, while washing my face and looking through the mirror, I was surprised to see a huge patch of red skin covering my neck and the upper part of my body. I felt itchy but thinking that it might had been caused by an insect bite, I jez ignored it.

In the morning, again I washed my face using that soap and applied the day cream, as instructed by the Sales lady. Totally believing in what she'd said, it didn't cross my mind that the rash on my body was due to the side effect of the cream. Towards evening, I saw my face red and swollen and when I touch it, I can feel a slight pain n irritation. It also had a burning sensation. Oh God, what had I done to my face. I called thia into my room and showed her my face, my neck and all those red spots on my body..."Ini macan kesan allergic, mak", thia commented.

Thia asked me to stop using the soap and the cream. I kept on washing my face with tap water to ease the burning sensation. I felt so, so scared and prayed hard that nothing worse than this would happen to my face. Infact, this is the 1st time I 'ventured' into this experiment. (Sebelum nie xpernah terpedaya dgn kata-kata jurujual make-up). I must immediately go and see the doctor tomorrow.

Went to see Dr. Nurul this morning..very sweet and gentle doctor. "Dr., tengoklah apa dah jadi dgn muka sy! Dah xcomel dahhh. Camne nak raya nie?" I demanded her sympathy. "You pakai cream ape nie?" asked Dr. Nurul. I told her my sad story.."Sah ada benda yg u allergic nie. Mesti ada sommething dlm cream yg menyebabkan muka u bengkak" She added. "One injection k...n ubat bengkak n gatal-gatal." advised Dr. Nurul. Emmmm..xpasal2 kena injection. Dah lama xkena injection tauu.
But Dr. Nurul said dgn injection saje bengkak xbole hilang..kena telan ubat jugak. Terima aje la arahan Dr....and dpt MC sehari (nie yg ada masa update blog ....hihihi).

Hopefully, my face will be back to normal dlm masa dua tiga hari nanti....xnak la beraya dgn muka sembab...macam Doraemon.

Moral of the Story: Jangan mudah terpedaya dengan janji-janji manis jurujual n biarlah berbelanja lbh sikit untuk mendapatkan produk yang berkualiti. And also always get the advice from the experts first.

Shopping RaYa

15 September 2008, most happiest day in 2008 diary? Why? It's PAY DAY for all government officers and more so this year, they were given the 1st payment of a one month's bonus. So, this month they received half month bonus. Yahoooo.....that includes me, of course.

But b4 bonus day, thia and me, awal-awal lg dah serang SOGO! Sorry...terpaksa guna 'campurisation' of languages...kalau dulu istilah 'bahasa rojak' tp skrg x lg...we used 'campurisation' .....sounds better....ala-ala 'internationalisation' gitu...

We entered SOGO around 11.30 a.m. on Friday, 5th September. Oh my God! we were so surprised to see hundreds of early birds already flocking at the departmental stores especially at the Children's department. On our way up, we could see big crowds on the groundfloor macam semut mengurung gula gamaknye....kata org Perak. Furthermore, it was a PREVIEW day for SOGO card members and there was a big sale.

(Interlude: Thia tengah packing baju untuk bawa balik Cairo....cam xmuat je beg tu..)

My main intention was to buy baju raya for Hafiz n Zaim and to take advantage of the 70% discount tp yunno la thia...dia slalu 'tumpang semangkuk....she said for adik tp kalau beli untuk adik, kena beli untuk dia jugak....biaselah anak manja..as a mother, of course I won't let her down......After so much hassle, I managed to picked up few new shirts and pants for my two younger sons. The prices were quite reasonable....kira murah la jugak, then it was time to pay. Upon reaching the payment counter, we were taken aback coz the queue was so long and it would take us more than half an hour to reach the cashier. We decided to go to another counter but the situation is the same. What to do..queue ajer la..Halfway through, one lady staff asked us to go to the upper floor coz there were less people at that department. Alhamdulillah. We quickly rushed to the upper floor and get the payment done.

(Interlude: Thia pening kepala.....baju xmuat beg...lum lg nak isi botol kicap n cili sos ...)

When we left SOGO at about 4.30 p.m. (5 solid hours in SOGO!), people still keep coming in. Luckily, it was a working day. The next day, Anwar, my son told me that he and his wife, Aishah, could not enter SOGO at all!

This Hari Raya kira mewah sikit la berbelanje coz dpt bonus...tp arini bru 20hb.....duit bonus cam dah abis jerrr ......huhuhu...xpe janji anak-anak bahagia.

P/S: Kalau nak shopping kat SOGO masa sale, kena pegi subuh-subuh...tunggu depan pintu masuk.

Cinta 1

Semalam sy menghadiri sesi ceramah agama mingguan di ofis. Penceramahnye seorg ustaz yg sy sgt kagumi...sejak menghadiri kursus Khemah Ibadah kira-kira dua bulan yg lalu. Bila ustaz ini memberi ceramah, impaknye sgt hebat...mampu menyedarkan kita dan membuat kita benar-benar insaf. Bukan setakat berderai air mata malah terisak-isak memikirkan dosa-dosa .....lebih-lebih lg semasa membaca doa taubat selepas solat subuh..,,,,,dalam suasana yg penuh keheningan dan kesyahduan....air mata bercucuran begitu deras sekali macam air terjun di Niagara Falls.

Bukan tentang itu yang ingin dikongsi bersama tetapi kisah bagaimana CINTA itu membuat kita jadi BUTA....CINTA biasanye dikaitkan dgn sesuatu yang sgt indah, mempesona, mengkhayalkan, membahagiakan dan berbagai-bagai lg yg semuanya indah-indah belaka. Ianya akan terasa begitu indah sehinggalah apabila ianya menemui kegagalan dan ditimpa kekecewaan barulah kita terasa CINTA itu pahit and menyakitkan.

Menurut kata Ustaz, perjalanan CINTA itu, sekiranya tidak dipandu dgn IMAN akan menjerumuskan pencinta-pencinta ke dlm lembah yg hina. CINTA bermula dgn perkenalan, bila dah kenal maka lahirlah bibit-bibit CINTA. Apabila benih-benih CINTA mula bersemi, maka berkembanglah bunga-bunga CINTA. Kuasa CINTA yg sudah bertahta dihati, mampu membuat sang pencinta menjadi BUTA. Yg cerdik pun boleh jd xcerdik, yg kuat imannya pun boleh goyah keimananya dek kerana SETIA dan PATUHnya dia pada CINTAnya. Baginya kesetiaan dan kepatuhan itu adalah bukti kehebatan CINTAnya. Maka. bagi membuktikan lagi kehebatan CINTAnya itu, sang pencinta sanggup BERKORBAN apa saja tanpa menyangka yang satu ketika nanti apabila CINTAnya menemui kegagalan atau dia dikecewakan, dirinya akan TERKORBAN.

Oleh itu, berhati-hatilah apabila diri dilanda penyakit CINTA. CINTA yang hebat itu sebaik-baiknya hanya untuk DIA ......YANG MAHA AGUNG.....PENCIPTA KITA. ...YANG MAHA PENGASIH LAGI PENYAYANG.

Sila nantikan CINTA II....bila? Entah bila agaknye...

Being 'Young' at heart

People must be wondering why I feel so 'young' at heart. Everyday, I am being surrounded by young people and make new friends, also with younger people. I never always had the chance to meet the 'older generation' except if I go back to my kampongs, either Johor (mine) or Kelantan (hubby's). I'm the 2nd oldest in my office..luckily they called me 'KAK' not 'MAK' otherwise I will feel old before I am really 'old' but I don't mind they called me 'IBU' as I feel honoured by that name.

Actually, I enjoyed making friends with the young generations. I love. to learn new things from them (they are supposed to learn from me, as a very senior and experienced person) but to be old doesn't mean you know everything. And it is interesting to 'venture' into the young world. Especially on certain things that I never had and experienced before. Young people nowadays, I should say, are very smart, dynamic, ambitious, adventurous blah..blah...blah...and they are quite lucky too. I did not possess those characters when I was young...and I missed so many opportunities. I want to make sure my children will not repeat my mistakes... lack of confidence. They must be brave enough to face the world which is full of challenges but very rewarding.


I was a victim of circumstances and was not given the chance to pursue my education to the highest level. My priority at that time was MARRIAGE not EDUCATION. But for my children, EDUCATION should come first. I want to make sure that all of them complete their education at the highest level first before they think of marriage. But, is that possible? Still 'Jodoh ditangan Tuhan'. However, that would be my greatest achievement in life (to see them successful in their life) besides seeking for Allah's blessings, mercy and forgiveness.


To my children, 'mak' will always be there for you....in happiness and sadness

Welcome.....

Welcome to my blog ... at last I'm a blogger..sounds funny at this age eh??? Well, it's better late than never. Kind of envious reading other people's blog...main objective? Sharing info, real life experience, new ideas and knowledge.....sometimes sort of therapy after a long hard day at work, not mentioning at home!

Thnx to my sweetheart, thia, who created this blog for her beloved mum...her mamachomel ....she did it today after subuh prayer...both of us were so excited!!! I asked her "is it ok for a nanny to have a blog?"....."why not?" she answered... that 's the encouragement I need.

Anyway, age is jez a number...I still feel "young" inside hehehe....



Till we meet again...